2014

I've learnt that... 

- you cannot make someone love you but you can be someone who is loved by everyone

- you can only fix people only by love

- you should not hurt someone because you have been hurt before

- happiness can be found in little things too

- it's never too late to correct your mistakes

- beauty lies in the places where people don't exist

- you can always be better

I've learnt that there is still a-lot left to learn...

I knew it from the start

I knew I couldn't be your friend
But I wasn't sure how it would end

Started as friends
Then spending time during the weekend
And you always made me think you were godsend

We lived, loved and laughed
Made me pretend
We were just friends
But on the inside, I wished I was your boyfriend

And slowly I felt short on time which I willingly wanted to extend
To tell you,  that I just cannot be a friend
Because I loved you, but I didn't want to offend

And I just had to tell you, everything
And that felt like the end

And soon you were gone , leaving me torn-apart
And Maybe it's a-little too late to get these words out of my heart
But I had a feeling from the start ~

I knew I couldn't be your friend
Because I knew I would love you in the end.

Tell me, Do I have a chance?

I know that you loved him..
I know that you tried..

I know that he hurt you..
I know that you cried..

I know that he left you..
I know that you died, on the inside.

I know that you miss him..
I know that you lie..

I know that you're on your way, back to your smiles.
I know that you're perfect, I have a million reasons why.

I know your silenced words , all by those eyes
I know you know, how much I love getting lost in those eyes. 

I know that I love you..
I know that I hide..

A dream to dream.

Everything starts with a wish
A wish to build a dream on
A dream to be happy together
Her and him

Everything looks so tough in the start
But the wish still stays
Stays for one to continue living the dream
The dream where he is happy

Eventually , the wish mixes up with reality
A reality that makes him wish even more
A dream that's quite a-lot to ask for
A dream where he's the happiest

And then comes unplanned dilemmas
Where the dream just starts to seem shattering away
And his happiness seemingly drifting away
And then after few days , he fixes himself all over again.

Hardest thing to do..

The hardest thing to do, was to tell you I won’t speak to you.

I guess, you just left me with no choice

Tired of getting hurt, over and over.

Tired of being left out, for no reason.

The hardest thing to do, not speaking to you.

Maybe I’m just used to. 

Love. Let go . Repeat.

There have been nights, where more than music I’ve needed you.

There have been times where I’ve let everything behind, just to speak to you.

How I wish I could tell you, these words crave to be read by you

It feels like I won’t see you again ever in my life.

Maybe you wouldn’t want me to .

Maybe I don’t deserve to.

So I write these words , telling you how much I would miss you. 

The hardest thing to do, not speaking to you.

Every night I’ll love to miss my sleep, missing you.

I find myself, within you.

I don’t know this feeling… Nor I know if it’s true.
I don’t know this world.. But I do know you.
You give me chills, You give me pain ; Along with reasons to continue. 

I don’t know if it’s true that I need you..
But each time we fight.. It takes long time for me to initiate to you. 

If I could use that time, I’d use it all on you..
Because girl, whenever we speak ; You give me a new ‘Me’ with you..

Unspoken words

It's the words, which are hard to find

especially the ones, which are hard to define.

It's bliss when we talk ,  but maybe there's still happiness beneath to refine.

Words, left unsaid . Yours or Mine.

Dying to come out, without the bottle of wine... 

Words finding its own way could be divine :)

It's the voice stuck inside..

Having emotions in my mind 

Asking questions to me..

If I could make you mine. 

In the deep silence, I search for my answers. 

If I could make you mine, If I could make you mine.?

The Time is Now

I'm back to square one, where I have been almost all my life
This time, it was me who wanted to get here.
To figure out myself , to reincarnate my life
Things might not be as great as I've always had ;
and I might not be a happy man anymore but it doesn't matter
because this time, its not about me ; It's about others,
the ones who have been hurt because of me

It's time for me to realise what I've valued the most.
It's time for me to understand what really makes me happy
It's time for me to fix up my priorities in life and stick to it.

The time, The time is now. 

The Darker Side

Every door has a darker side, Everything has a shadow.
There's always something hidden behind every little thing that we see.
I get all these feelings when I sit alone and turn up the pages.
The pages filled up with the past, of the people whom I know.
The past seems to be filled about everything that I dislike
Every bit of it, and Everytime I end up with not much to ask about
Not much to think about, but maybe something to worry about.
Yeah, It feels weird imagining how things were with the ones I know
But I don't think It should affect me now, because I know how things are now.
But the more I see, the more I think, and the more I worry.
I don't think that there's anything else to know, but who does?
Every door has a darker side. Everything has a shadow.

When it all turns up against me

I feel like I am standing in the middle of an ocean ; its all far from reaching where I belong.
I had made my choice and life made its own. It turned out against me.
I couldn't imagine this situation even in my worst dream., but its all fair now.
It's all me and my life and Its just me who can make it better.
It's just me who made it this way, now I gotta paint my own life and find the reason for my own smile.
They say in life you make choices and don't look back ,
I think I gotta do the same, and not regret any thing that has happened in my life.
I gotta be calm for what-so-ever mind I make, but its apparently that I've been waiting.

Waiting in the ashes of time ; hoping for the day you'll be mine.

Reminiscing Togetherness

I just keep laying down on my bed ; looking up, realizing time moving so quick.
And I remember the time that passed so quick when we were together.
And when I close my eyes for a flashback, I start with the time when I first saw you.
I was pretty sure, how'd you look like, but when I saw you , I couldn't get my eyes off you.
So we walked talking about the recent happenings, and the jokes around. I got you smiling.
At the mall, walking with you felt kinda nice, and when you touched my hand,
there was a spark in me, which made me tell you to hold it. It was the feeling that got me close to you.
First , I thought it was too early to ask for, but then I realized you wanted to hold my hand too.
And , then we walked holding hands together , looking into each other's eyes.
Talking about this and that, and the time passed by. It was too early to go but I didn't
have a choice. I had the reasons to stay, but I had to go.
and then when you hugged me tight, It made me weak but it was time to say good-bye.
There's nothing good about goodbye, I swear, on the phone I heard you cry.

It's killing me inside

All I ever wanted was a normal life
Never demanded much, never demanded high
Wanted to live everyday like a normal day
Had no ambitions to dream so high.
All I wanted was to be happy.
Not with money, not with disguise.
It feels like , happiness is just a desire.
Something that'd help me burn the fire inside.
All I tried was to forget you;
By different ways, different games.
It just gets me back, and then I feel
It's just me, forcing you to talk .
Maybe , It'd never be what I'm trying to get back
But , there's no way out .
They say, it's still worth fighting for
And I'm not backing out... No more, No more.

Everytime

Everytime I think , I think about you.
I tell to myself , that I've found someone so true,
Everytime I talk , It's hard to stop smiling.
It's hard for me to understand , how am I falling.
Everytime I talk to you, I wish I were beside you
So I'd lift you higher and say baby I heart you.
Everytime we speak, you've made me realize
that there are more than 100 reasons to smile.
Everynight, its you who has been on my mind
and I don't care if  I'd be called selfish calling you just mine.

Keeping my insecurity aside, I still can say girl one day, I'll make you mine, not so fast but in sometime. :)

Sometimes

Sometimes I end up in a way where no one is there to help me with my decisions.
Sometimes you make me feel you don't like me , sometimes you make me feel that you do.
Sometimes, I plan to step backwards, sometimes I'm like I would never give up.
Sometimes I feel so weird, so insecure that I feel that I'm gonna loose you.
and, Sometimes I'm like "fuck everyone ; you're mine"

I really don't know what's with me. I am unable to understand myself
How can I expect you to understand me? : /

Time :/

They say if you could control time you would be the most powerful among all, as you can go back and live those moments, those memories. Well, Time cannot control itself, so who are we to even try. It has made me feel sad about every moment that I've lived and wanted to live back.
Life isn't pretty good when you meet up some great people who become great friends and then you face up the situation of division. Just because of time, I've missed those days that everyone want to live forever. But, Oh well life's like a road, It can't always be perfect..

When you're with your buddies, everything seems so perfect, but you don't realize that everything's just temporary. The smile, the moments, the mischief's , the bunks and so on.

Some say we can at-least live those moments as they're never gonna come back. I'm like I wish I could live those days back. I know I can't.

Time : the only thing that we want the most, and probably the only thing that we use the worst.

I belong to you

I was left up all alone, with no one who cared of me.
Everything was out of reach, and I found this girl by my side.
She was soft and sweet, like a little princess.
We talked, laughed, shared and loved.
Everything was so perfect.
She made me smile, and realize she was the one.


It was never my choice to love you.
You made me love you
You made me feel that way.

You made me dream
You made me smile
You made me feel that way.

I thought love just happens for once,
but you taught me to love.
You made me feel that way

Talking to you, makes me feel like
For now, my life is complete.
Every moment I spend with you
and I make you smile, makes my life worth while.

Never look back

Enough of loving you inside
Enough of worrying for you inside,
To be honest, you were the only thing in my mind.

Enough of getting your vision
Enough for me to take a decision
to put a full stop on the short story of mine.

I know, whatever I choose is hard to get
Maybe I need a new start.
Because it goes the same way like it's ever been.
You make me dream ; and then you break my dream.

All I ever wanted was just one chance
to talk to you, to make you dream
to build our wonderland.
Seems like there's nothing left to wonder.

I just go blank these days
so now It's my chance to move on,
and change the things that I've lived for so long.

Gotta be prepared for the ups and down's
I'm gonna be through with.
No, I'm not gonna look back towards you
No, I'm not gonna think again to be with you.

It was always You + me = Never
Kid, I was to think that it was forever.

Light my life

I don't know which way I'm on, which way I'm heading. I guess I'm going on the wrong way since I'm walking alone. I'm looking for someone who could lead me home, who could make me realize I'm wrong. I' m looking for someone who could lead me home, who could make me realize I'm wrong.

I've come away so far leaving everything behind, keeping my past aside, but what I've reached is a lonely road that leads me to nowhere.

All that I wanted was someone who could hold my hand and take me to the light, show me the beauty of life, and show me the meaning of my existence.


Someone who could understand everything about me , someone who would be always there with me smiling looking into my eyes,and more than everything someone who can be a reason for my smile. 

Feels like the first time.

Days I've been into darkness..
To hate is what I've been taught to..
Days I've wanted to shine..
To pretend is what this life taught to..
Days I've been through
are hard to explain to..

Let me live the way I want to
Set me free set me free!

For once I wanna forget what I've been through
For once I wanna forget the pain life gave me , and live, live like a free bird..
For once I wanna start loving all over again..
For once I wanna start enjoying the small moments of life.
For once I wanna recollect my memories and cry them out
For once I wanna cry for everything that I haven't cried out yet.

Let me live the way I want to,
Set me free set me free.

It's time to change.

I thought you'll always be my inspiration.
leading me towards my destination..
I thought you'll always be my power..
to ignite the best outta me.
I always thought you'll teach me to love..
though you taught me to live...
Without you.

I realized, you were just a phase of mine
taking me to the brighter side.
Making me learn a-lot many things in life.

So after I learnt to live,
I learned to hate, and never wait.
I learned to ease the pain and never show.
I learned to pretend, and always hide.

Now, I'm living up a life with no regrets.
Nothing to loose, and everything to gain.

Moving ahead with the better gears of life,
Towards a better life, towards a better way.