It's killing me inside

All I ever wanted was a normal life
Never demanded much, never demanded high
Wanted to live everyday like a normal day
Had no ambitions to dream so high.
All I wanted was to be happy.
Not with money, not with disguise.
It feels like , happiness is just a desire.
Something that'd help me burn the fire inside.
All I tried was to forget you;
By different ways, different games.
It just gets me back, and then I feel
It's just me, forcing you to talk .
Maybe , It'd never be what I'm trying to get back
But , there's no way out .
They say, it's still worth fighting for
And I'm not backing out... No more, No more.