2014

I've learnt that... 

- you cannot make someone love you but you can be someone who is loved by everyone

- you can only fix people only by love

- you should not hurt someone because you have been hurt before

- happiness can be found in little things too

- it's never too late to correct your mistakes

- beauty lies in the places where people don't exist

- you can always be better

I've learnt that there is still a-lot left to learn...

I knew it from the start

I knew I couldn't be your friend
But I wasn't sure how it would end

Started as friends
Then spending time during the weekend
And you always made me think you were godsend

We lived, loved and laughed
Made me pretend
We were just friends
But on the inside, I wished I was your boyfriend

And slowly I felt short on time which I willingly wanted to extend
To tell you,  that I just cannot be a friend
Because I loved you, but I didn't want to offend

And I just had to tell you, everything
And that felt like the end

And soon you were gone , leaving me torn-apart
And Maybe it's a-little too late to get these words out of my heart
But I had a feeling from the start ~

I knew I couldn't be your friend
Because I knew I would love you in the end.

Tell me, Do I have a chance?

I know that you loved him..
I know that you tried..

I know that he hurt you..
I know that you cried..

I know that he left you..
I know that you died, on the inside.

I know that you miss him..
I know that you lie..

I know that you're on your way, back to your smiles.
I know that you're perfect, I have a million reasons why.

I know your silenced words , all by those eyes
I know you know, how much I love getting lost in those eyes. 

I know that I love you..
I know that I hide..

A dream to dream.

Everything starts with a wish
A wish to build a dream on
A dream to be happy together
Her and him

Everything looks so tough in the start
But the wish still stays
Stays for one to continue living the dream
The dream where he is happy

Eventually , the wish mixes up with reality
A reality that makes him wish even more
A dream that's quite a-lot to ask for
A dream where he's the happiest

And then comes unplanned dilemmas
Where the dream just starts to seem shattering away
And his happiness seemingly drifting away
And then after few days , he fixes himself all over again.

Hardest thing to do..

The hardest thing to do, was to tell you I won’t speak to you.

I guess, you just left me with no choice

Tired of getting hurt, over and over.

Tired of being left out, for no reason.

The hardest thing to do, not speaking to you.

Maybe I’m just used to. 

Love. Let go . Repeat.

There have been nights, where more than music I’ve needed you.

There have been times where I’ve let everything behind, just to speak to you.

How I wish I could tell you, these words crave to be read by you

It feels like I won’t see you again ever in my life.

Maybe you wouldn’t want me to .

Maybe I don’t deserve to.

So I write these words , telling you how much I would miss you. 

The hardest thing to do, not speaking to you.

Every night I’ll love to miss my sleep, missing you.

I find myself, within you.

I don’t know this feeling… Nor I know if it’s true.
I don’t know this world.. But I do know you.
You give me chills, You give me pain ; Along with reasons to continue. 

I don’t know if it’s true that I need you..
But each time we fight.. It takes long time for me to initiate to you. 

If I could use that time, I’d use it all on you..
Because girl, whenever we speak ; You give me a new ‘Me’ with you..